My emotional, annual journey begins tonight (Holy Thursday). Welcome to Pascal Triduum 2019! ❤
Every year since I was in about 7th grade (maybe 8th), with the exception of 2007, I have always had a profound sense of wonder and awe about this time of year. Also, as a lot of people know about me, I experience intense emotions. For example, I do not just have a good day; I have an exceptionally awesome day, but on the flip side, I don’t just get mad I can get down right irate or even enraged. I don’t just feel sad, I can be down right depressed. I’ve learned from some this might put me in a classification as an “emo kid” and I guess to some extent they could be right; if you actually define it at its most literal sense emo just means emotional and that’s what I am: I am emotional and extremely emotional at that. Anyway, I’m digressing from the point of this journey.
Back on track, the Pascal Triduum is basically the three days leading up to and culminating on Easter Sunday. Tonight/today is Holy Thursday or Maundy Thursday. I know I’ve touched upon all of the days of the Pascal Triduum at great length in the past, so feel free to read those entries; I don’t want to revisit them because they can get very lengthy and personally I’m not in the mood to talk tonight as I had a horrible sinus-migraine headache combo last night and I’m starting to get another milder headache right now.
Let me touch upon a few things, though, that I doubt I’ve mentioned in the past. I’ve always said, I’d do my best to stay awake one additional hour at home Holy Thursday night “to keep watch” as Jesus instructed His disciples the first Holy Thursday. I admit, like the disciples, I often cannot stay awake. I also had said, every year since about 1998 I think, if I ever couldn’t sleep on Holy Thursday I’d get in my car and drive down to church to pray in front of the Blessed Sacrament in the Adoration Chapel. I think the only things that stop me from doing just that are my car is usually parked very close to the house and I’d wake Steven (as his bedroom is right next to the garage/driveway) on my way out and the fact I don’t see very well at night. Last thing, I have to wonder just how shocking it must have been that first Holy Thursday realizing that all that you thought you knew about Jesus was about to be changed yet again. He was always surprising his disciples by turning the laws upside-down and inside-out, so why would Passover be any different? I wonder how they felt. We only get glimpses of it in the scriptures. Just something to think about as we begin the Pascal Triduum again.
Well, that’s all for me tonight. As I said, some how, I always find myself very emotional this time of year and really delve into my faith at this point almost as much as Christmas. Have a blessed Triduum, if I fail to write again, and I’ll see you again real soon! 🙂
Love and prayers, as always! ❤