Ecclesiastes 3 is basically what I’ve been reminding myself time and again as of late. For those of you unfamiliar with it, in summary, says that there is a time and purpose for everything. Lately, for me anyway, I’m going through a time where I’m struggling with my faith again and I’m also struggling financially. There’s a lot of struggling going on in my life right. Let’s just be forthright about it.
I can’t find a reason to not be gloomy. I’ve had everything from faith to health bothering me at the moment. Maybe bothering is not the right word, but I’m not sure what is other than struggles.
About 4 days ago I had a horrible headache; I’m still not 100% sure what caused it. I only venture to guess it’s because I couldn’t eat dinner (because it didn’t agree with me), which made me sick, and then couldn’t eat anything else the rest of the day. My head hurt which in turn caused my stomach to get nauseous and then led to me being unable to sleep. This all led me to not being able to finish my 8-hour shift on Friday. I did get a sports drink from Nicole, but it seemed to only help keep me at work for 6 hours. I was still a bit tired on Saturday, but pulled through my shift and then managed to make it to church Sunday.
While at church on Sunday my mind wandered. I couldn’t focus on anything. I don’t remember anything about the readings (I think, maybe I’m wrong, they were about [Saint] John the Baptist). I only remember the announcements at the end congratulated Steven’s favorite teacher for being at the school for 26 years!
Here it is now Monday and I have to go back to work tomorrow. Not looking forward to it as I have to work with someone who just is really picky and even more sarcastic than I am! (Hard to believe isn’t it?!)
I’ve been wanting to talk to a friend of mine for quite some time, but he just recently returned from vacation and I doubt he’ll be back up in Kansas City soon. (I’m sure some of you have guessed who this is.) I have a lot to talk about with him, too. I hope he has an hour or more to spend with me, but I doubt that.
Also I’ve been doing some research on new ideas for my company since none of you have told me if you’d sponsor me on Patreon. Maybe you just don’t know enough about it or you don’t think you could help me. Let me remind you, every little bit would help and Patreon is used by so many people to help artists (writers, musicians, painters, etc.) to continue what they do and give rewards to their supporters. I’m still dreaming up ideas on how to reward people, but some of what I’m thinking of includes access to special entries and mentions in a blog entry at the beginning or end of each month.
Anyway, I guess everything has a purpose; I just wish I knew what my purpose is right now and why all that is happening is.
As I continue to struggle, I hope you’ll at least consider helping me or telling me in someway what you think of my idea. I just want to finally be able to stay home on days when the weather is less than ideal, be financially secure/stable, healthy, and happy.
Love and prayers, as always! ❤
PS Christmas is 6 months from today! 😀