I don’t deserve friends like you; you’re all so kind! I actually have said these words recently (or something similar) this past week. I said those kind of words while talking with my general manager (I don’t know if I mentioned her by name before in this blog; if not her name’s Nicole) on Monday. I mostly talked, but it was because I had a lot on my mind. As I’ve stated many times, I’ve been struggling with my beliefs and faith life. That took up the majority of my afternoon while working with Nicole. I also stated how great a friend I had in her predecessor, as well. I don’t deserve friends I do have. Nicole is such an awesome listener! I poured out my guts to her and prepared to be (as I’ve said) crucified or stoned, but no. She listened, asked questions, and made me question myself and learn more.
Today, before opening the store, I asked and listened to a “sermon” from Nicole’s dad, Thayne. We talked about some of my beliefs and why I felt the way I do. Long story short (because we talked for about 10-15 minutes), I’m still not sure where I stand but I know a bit more of why some teachings are what they are. I will continue my search for my beliefs and where I stand. I don’t deserve friends like these two (as well as Steven and my former manager). I also don’t deserve you, my followers. I don’t deserve all of you, but that doesn’t mean I’m ungrateful for all of you! I am happy and feel special/blessed to have all of you!
Well, nothing else to comment on tonight, but I’ll try to make another entry soon.
Love and prayers, as always! ❤