I started early this morning, technically late last night, feeling negative (i.e., anger, hatred, and confusion). Without going into the details of what made me feel this way, I’ll just say I made my way through my day still feeling quite negative and it wasn’t until just about 15 or 30 minutes ago (roughly 5:30 pm CDT, nearly 24 hours after all this started) that I just broke down and explained to someone why I was so on edge today. After doing that a great amount of peace overcame me and I now just want to collapse and cry — not necessarily cry out of sadness, but because of how stupid I was! There is no room for anger, hatred, or confusion: only love!
Love for my neighbor and fellow travelers on this road. I was blinded by sin and Satan’s desire to make me hate and feel turned away from whom I thought I could never love (not romantic love, but love and respect for this person) again. This person deserves my respect and admiration; (s)he has held more leadership roles than I and definitely deserves every bit of the admiration and respect I will give him/her from this day forward.
I was stupid! I misinterpreted what should have just been a simple statement and blew it way out of proportion; I have no idea why I did or acted the way I did, but now I can’t wait to see them again and their smile. They aren’t mad at me nor I them; I was so stupid and what good does it do to bring up the past when that’s just what it is? The past! As I read in my devotional today: “…what is old has passed away. Behold, all things have been made new” (2 Corinthians 5:17).
Love will come from all my anger, hatred, and confusion. I will make a new relationship and a better one than ever before. Thanks again, Thayne, for giving me this new tool! It’s been more helpful than I thought it would and in such a short time! 😀
Love and prayers, as always! ❤