One of the Most Difficult Things I’ve Had to Do

Today I had to do one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do in my life. No, it wasn’t get in an elevator. No, I didn’t have to lift 50+ pounds of something. No, I didn’t have to go to a funeral or a wake. No, I didn’t even have to witness someone I love die. I’ve done all of those things, but by far today was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do. I had to admit that I might be leaving one company for another and that I’m not happy with where things are going.

Today was supposed to be a performance review of my own performance not that of the owner of my mall employer. I, however, decided to give my own performance review of my owner. I’m sure he wasn’t pleased by what I had to say. It was difficult and challenging to say the least. We talked over coffee, one of several things we have in common, and discussed things for almost an hour.

I am not one to sugarcoat things. I say them as I see them and I don’t tend to hold back. If I want to talk and there are things on my mind, I say them. It’s not easy and I’m usually the one who breaks down in tears, but they are because I am usually moved with emotion about what I’m talking about and with whom I’m talking.

I don’t like to talk to people who are older than me about things like this; I don’t like to even tell people I think they’re wrong about something. I don’t know how to read minds or actions well, so usually this doesn’t end up as well as I’d like. It makes everyone uncomfortable and I don’t like doing it.What’s done, though, is done. I’ve spoken my mind and let my opinions be known. Now we just have to see what develops in the next few days and weeks. I have a lot to think about and pray a lot more than I thought. I’ve said, things are great as they are and I’ll stay. Things may change, but only time can tell if that remains the case. I will know probably, at the earliest, Thursday afternoon; the latest I could know would be a couple of weeks from now. As is things have been said and done; now it’s time for action and reaction.

Love and prayers, as always!


About Christy

I enjoy: my family, my faith life, photography, drawing; writing, working on cars, basketball, football, and baseball. These are just a few of the many things I'll just have to read my blog to know me better to know more of them. Other things you may not catch on that I enjoy are: cats, angels, ballroom dancing, Christian music, camping (being one with nature and all of God's creations), traveling, cherry and apple blossoms, and the colors blue (in all shades), white, black, dark purple, and SOME shades of pink. (Rainbows are cool, too. And I'm NOT a lesbian! Although, I'm friends with some gays and lesbians as well as a few transgenders.) I am Roman Catholic. I graduated from Johnson County Community College, where I majored in Animation in hopes of fulfilling my dreams of being a computer generated animation movie maker. I also have a degree in Corporate Communication from Avila University. I'm currently employed at Nestle Toll House/Haagen-Dazs (at Oak Park Mall in Overland Park), I own my own business -- C & S Productions, L.L.C. (check it out at, and am single. My favorite time of year is Winter and the Christmas season! It's just so...well, I can't put it into words. ^_^ Lastly, I am 36 years young!
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