So tomorrow is the feast of the Epiphany in the Catholic Church (when the astrologers from the East came to visit Jesus and His family). I have no idea why epiphany has also come to be known as a sudden revelation of sorts; I only speculate that it has to do with the fact that Jesus was suddenly revealed to be the Savior of all!
Anyway, so while today in my family is a somber one, I have a fairly good reason to be celebrating today! I know I’ve said this at least one other place in this blog, but I can’t find it now when I want to link back to it. I finally think today I’ve hit the nail on the head as to my leadership role. Allow me to set the stage for you.
I was in the back room at work today, eating my lunch (a salad) and texting Steven. Suddenly, I dropped my fork. I’m a leader because he needs me; they need me.
It suddenly occurred to me the reason I’m a leader is because Steven needs me; Mom needs it too. Apparently a lot of my co-workers do as well. But I didn’t choose to be a leader; sometimes being a leader is something that you just learn that’s who you are. You don’t act any differently because it’s just something that comes naturally to you. You lead by example and that’s what makes you the leader you are. All this time I’m thinking there is no way I could be a leader; I had always been looking for someone to follow, when all this time I should have been leading. The reason I don’t do well when I rely on others is for that very reason; I don’t need to rely on them. I am a leader; I will lead them. It’s up to me to show them the way and to help them. It now seems to me that I didn’t choose to be a leader, but it’s something I was born to be. Maybe it’s because I’m the oldest. Maybe it’s because I don’t always agree with the way things are done. Maybe it’s because Daddy left me in charge. Whatever the reason, it is now clear to me that I am a leader and I have always been a leader.
I am finally strong enough to hold my head up high and proud. I am a leader; I will help you all. I will lead you where you need to go. The only leader I need to help me in this is Jesus and in some cases to remember Daddy is just a prayer a way. I suppose I could also use my boss and “Dad” to help me learn as well. Yes, Thayne, I need your help, too!
Love and prayers now and always!