The year is more than half over and I can honestly say this year has been rough on me. I can say that knowing that my health condition(s) haven’t really improved much over this past year (heck look at all my sick day entries 😥 ) and on top of that my personal life hasn’t really improved either. I feel I’ve been getting on a lot of my family members’ nerves this past year. I have picked more fights and made more people angry than happy and stopping fights. *sighs* I just feel so terrible about all this. I lost a great friend (and so did my mom), my blood sugar and weight haven’t been exactly optimal, and things have just made me feel all around terrible.
Okay, okay, so things are not all that bad really. I mean some things did go right. I have found I have at least two totally true friends (one being my current manager and the other is Steven). I guess also it wasn’t so bad in that I managed to purchase at least one Christmas gift way ahead of time and know that it will be well-loved. 🙂 I have lost a little weight (if I don’t blow it this next week), and I am looking forward to spending a decent amount of time with Mom and Steven in the next few weeks (despite the holiday rush coming soon). At least one bridge was burned this year, but maybe it was for the better. I mean who needs people who put down your family and don’t support you fully or become a turncoat on you?
I’m starting to understand a lot more about health conditions that I have and my family has (e.g., atrial fibrillation, type two diabetes, and arthritis to name a few). I’m learning how to live with them and what to do differently. Lots has changed, but it has been rough this past year. I’m not going to lie; I thought this year might be different (and I was hoping different meant better).
As long as I don’t give up things always have a way of turning around; I know it isn’t going to be easy. I just hope it doesn’t get too rough before I can turn things around again.
Love and prayers!