I’m about ready to pull my hair out and just go screaming mad over here! It’s days like this I’m glad I keep a blog to keep me sane. I cannot seem to get anything to go right, but this is still better than yesterday…sort of.
Today I had no escape plan. I had to stay home. Anyway, so what’s bothering me today is the sheer fact that every time I try to help I get more in the way or things go horribly wrong when I try to. I’ve also tried offering to go places with others and that doesn’t work out.
I’m just so worn out and tired, stressed, and hungry (did I mention I’m a stress eater?)! I just wanna rest and yet the other part of me just wants to go to a gym and work out all this stress. I need to get myself a gym membership somewhere. I could easily go at a punching bag right now (no, I’m not violent it’s just how I get my aggression out sometimes).
Today I even thought about going to the Adoration Chapel, but I couldn’t justify why I needed to go out and not bring anyone with me. *sighs* I’m sorry I just need a break.
Also I tried doing some texturing on my 3D plant model, but until just now I could not figure out why I wasn’t getting any textures or the wrong textures on my objects. It took so long to figure out and then I couldn’t even concentrate enough because the phone kept ringing.
Why is it nothing wants to go my way today?! Thank God no one’s checking my blood pressure right now. I know it’s probably so high now. I can just feel the stress in my chest. I really need to calm down; I’m going to put on some more classical music for about 15 minutes or so.
I’ll write more on Saturday and, God-willing, all will be better!
Love and prayers!