Today was a bittersweet day. I can hardly believe it’s been 7 and 14 years. Let me explain.
It’s been 7 years since Daddy‘s been gone. Some days it seems longer — lots longer — and other days it seems so much shorter. As days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, and months turn into years, I have better ones than others. You never fully heal from the passing of your parent and role model. I always, secretly, thought of Daddy as a role model. He may not have been perfect, but some of what he did and how he behaved was/is how and what I want to be. He was a perfectionist for most things. He maintained a certain order and everything had its place. He also worked hard for what he wanted and for those he loved. I’ve said many things about him over the years, so I won’t elaborate much tonight on them, but you can be sure I’ll still keep talking about them for days, weeks, months, and years to come. 😀
Now, 14 years ago tonight I graduated from high school. I can’t believe I’ve been out of high school so long. It seems only yesterday I was in there discovering some of my talents and learning who I am as a person. I even had many friendships form over the years there. This was also where many paths parted ways. I had left a best friend, whom I knew for 11 years (at that time) and it was hard to say the least. Sure we get re-aquainted at class reunions, but something isn’t the same any more. I miss hanging out with her on the weekends and laughing about boys, etc. I also remember leaving behind a sense of security. I didn’t have to worry about what would happen next or what to wear. Classes were generally planned out (as was homework and tests) and I went to a Catholic school, so what to wear was easy (either a khaki kilt and a blue polo or khaki pants and a blue polo). Fairly easy.
So it’s hard to believe how fast the time has gone and I remember both the good and the bad of what this day means to me. I’m feeling very nostalgic today and probably will for a few weeks to come. Bear with me as I continue this bittersweet time in my life!
Alleluia! Jesus is risen! Alleluia! He is risen indeed!