Tonight while at Mass for tomorrow, we sang one of my favorite songs: The Summons. I’m always teary-eyed when I sing this song and at least one point leaves me unable to sing. That part is when we sing, “Will you love the you, you hide if I but call your name?”
I’m beginning to tear up again right now and all I’m doing is typing them. Why do I get so teary-eyed with this? Perhaps it’s because I actually have a hard time loving the secret me as I call her. I hide her so much and I don’t often love her. I have many flaws (who doesn’t?) and lots of those flaws I’d just as soon forget, but Jesus asks me (and others) to love that secret or hidden person when He calls us.
Parts of my secret self that I hide often are I’m an introvert (but I’ve all ready shared that with you guys) and I don’t agree with everything that the Catholic Church teaches. I don’t feel like telling the whole world ALL my secrets, so those are the only two you will get out of me. If I find someone I feel I can share more (if not everything) with, I will.
I have grown more accepting and loving of my hidden/secret me. It’s been hard, but I will eventually love more and more as my life goes on. I only pray that when I do, more people will love me as well. I guess it may go without saying, but I’m also hoping by loving my hidden/secret self that things may start to go more positively too.
So my blessing today? Loving more of my secret self than I have in the past. 🙂 Thanks, Jesus, for helping me love more of my secret self.
God, bless every one of us!